the good: abby is being so amazingly sweet and wonderful these past couple days… very little crying, sleeps 8+ hours per night… i look at her and i just want to snuggle her! she’s such a good natured little thing!
the bad: lola. she has gotten into the kitchen garbage twice in the last week and eaten various bad things and made big messes. she has been spanked. hard.
the ugly: my hair. i need a cut. or a perm. or a wig. something. bangs?
our condo is on the market and has been for several weeks… we have had exactly 1 viewing. i hate our real estate agent, i think she couldn’t care less about the $3000 or so dollars she stands to make off of selling our place, so she is not exactly busting her ass to get our place sold. sadly, we are in a contract for 3 months with her, so we’re stuck. ideally, i’d like to be in a new place (with central air) by the summer. this is not going to happen and it makes me want to cry.
abby is being particularly difficult lately. fussy as all get out. eats like crap (suck, suck, scream… suck, suck, scream). it’s awful. i want to wean her more than i can say. however, thanks to societal pressure and attendance at a few breastfeeding support groups, i feel obligated to continue to try. it’s really awesome to sit, feeding my baby, watching my own tears drip onto her little head. awesome. also, breastfeeding is cheapola and burns calories, so i’ll keep at ‘er for awhile yet, i guess. i just won’t leave the house because it’s bloody embarassing to try and feed the kid anywhere remotely public.
i don’t know if it’s baby blues, or what, but i just want to crawl back into bed and cry. our tv doesn’t work, our condo sucks, my baby hates me… i just feel so overwhelmed. i actually resent jason for being able to go to work sometimes (usually the times when abby is screaming so hard that she is tomato red and i can’t make her stop).
long time, no post.
we’re still on the hunt for a house… we’ve seen a few that are super-cute that we’d like to offer on, but we’re waiting to get an offer on our condo (which was listed this past friday). so far nobody has come to see our place and it’s getting a little bit difficult to keep it pristine!
lately, i’ve been finding myself very forgetful… i’m always forgetting things and losing things. the most recent thing i’ve lost is my passport and abby’s birth certificate. sarah and i went to the states on sunday afternoon and i had them then. i do not have them now. i am slightly freaking out about this. i am also slightly freaking out about my apparent early-onset alzheimers. seriously. even when i’m typing, i’ll be thinking of a word that i want to type and my hands will type something completely different. it’s insane.
after a couple of days of abby being a total jerk when she’s feeding, i’ve reached my breaking point. i’m taking her to a lacatation consultant today to see if they can figure out what’s wrong. this is a pretty drastic step for me, because i don’t like to admit that i need help… it feels an awful lot like admitting defeat. i’d really like to continue nursing the kidlet, but the excruciating physical pain that it causes is not worth it. my sister in law had some good insights about it which boil down to: if you dread it, and you end up resenting your baby because of it, it’s not worth it… she’s a wise woman.
on the house front, i’m undecided about who to list our house with. i really liked the second realtor that i saw, she was super nice… but her commission was 1/2 a percent higher than the last lady we saw… i realize that half a percent seems like chump change, but i did the math. it ends up being like a thousand dollars. grr.
in other news, jason’s new 4pm-1am schedule sucks. bad. i hate it. it may be the end of us.
abby has cradle cap, has had for a long time now. it hasn’t really caused an issue until recently…
generally it’s just flaky and it looks like she needs some head and shoulders, but lately i’ve been noticing that at the front of her head (where her bangs would be start if she had hair) is a kind of yellowish crusty buildup. i can scratch at it and get scales of it off, but i’m not allowed to - jason and i have an agreement. plus there’s a whole lot of it, so i’d be scratching for awhile and abby would probably not enjoy said scratching.
i did some research and purchased a product by dimpleskins naturals called ‘cradle me’. i smear it all over her head, leave it for a couple hours and then use a toothbrush or a cloth to try and remove the yuck when she’s in the bath. well, after the first time i used it, her head started stinking. it smells like old cheese! so i shampoo and shampoo and shampoo and the stink just keeps coming back. the product doesn’t stink, so i can’t imagine that it’s causing the stink on her head. maybe she has a fungus?
anywho, i’m going to public health today to get the munchkin vaccinated (poor thing) so maybe i’ll ask them while i’m there. hopefully they don’t tell me that i’m a bad mommy!
We let go the house we put an offer on… simply because everything was happening too fast and I wasn’t comfortable with spending a quarter of a million dollars on a house when I wasn’t sure if/when/for how much my current house would sell… reasonable, yet depressing.
We’ve been in touch with some listing agents in our area to list our condo… also a depressing endeavour. All of these agents charge 5.5% for a commission (I’m going to become a real estate agent) which knocks our profit down by like $10000. Also looking into what we’ve paid off on our mortgage, it’s about a THIRD of what we’ve paid in total. That’s two thirds to interest, one third to principal. That sucks bad! Our journey to house ownership continues…
Abby is being freakin’ adorable lately. She’s so smiley and funny… I love her so much! Jason’s back at work after his pat-leave is finished, which is a total bummer. I feel like I’m really getting into the mommy thing. Abby’s inconsolable screaming doesn’t pierce my brain anymore, I can function on considerably less sleep than I am used to. I’ve been barfed, peed and pooped on, and it really doesn’t bother me all that much. Watching her is like watching the best reality TV show ever made. Perhaps I’ll webcam her awesomeness…
jason and i put an offer on a house on sunday night. we went to the open house on sunday afternoon and liked it so much that we wanted to put an offer in right away! the owners accepted righ away…this is fantastic news!
now we have to get financing and sell our condo, so our stress has only just begun! we bought 6 gallons of paint yesterday to paint our condo, but we still haven’t heard back from the mortgage lady 
we’re back from our trip to visit the families… it was an okay trip, all in all. it started out pretty crappy: jason got sick, abby got sick, i got sick. abby needed an inhaler (with the saddest little mask attachment that was ever invented) and antibiotics, i needed antibiotics and jason needed buckley’s. i got a $228 speeding ticket, which i probably deserved but the cop didn’t have to be such a jerk about it.
while we were gone, my brother stayed at our house for a couple of days, and thank goodness he did! our neighbours are total jerks about parking and we almost ended up with one of our cars towed! we were planning on selling our place and moving somewhere bigger and better anyways, but this just makes the whole thing seem a little bit more urgent. we’re looking at some places tomorrow with our real estate agent, hopefully we find something awesome.
to facilitate the purchase of my new and awesome (and hopefully crappy-neighbour-less) home, i would really like to get rich… quick! jason always rolls his eyes when i’m scheming, but it doesn’t deter me. if anything, it only stokes the flames of my scheming. when we were back in alberta, i got a couple of things made for abby out of vinyl lettering. evidently this stuff is all the rage! i want to make it. and sell it. i also bought a whole load of crap for abby that was ridiculously expensive (headbands, soother clips, etc) but that i am sure i can figure out how to make. and sell.
etsy, here i come!
Today Jason and Abby and I are going to go to Kingston to visit my brother and sister-in-law. I’m going to bring fabric and supplies which I bought to make a hooter hider, the pattern for which I found at: http://imustnotthinkbadthoughts.wordpress.com hopefully it works out! If it does, Etsy, here I come!
I’m also bringing the fabric for my quilt of bitterness. A few months ago, my sister-in-law and I were shopping at a fabric store and I started picking out fabric that was all black and white and a couple of pieces of red fabric. I told her I was going to make a black and white quilt with little splashes of red. Apparently she had had the same idea before me but hadn’t gotten around to buying fabric. At least she’s still going to help me make the quilt… it’s going to be queen size and AWESOME!
as i start this post it’s 326am… abby has been awake for an hour, and so have i. this is the first night in a few that she has actually woken up in the night, so i can’t really complain. except that it’s 330 in the damn morning and i feel like complaining!
hopefully this is not a new trend whereby she attempts to slowly drive me insane by depriving me of sleep… it’s a good thing she’s so dang cute! but seriously, 330. am. eyes WIDE open! and what’s with the hiccups?!
